Friends

6 hours left. Hahahahaha. Okkk it feels weird wh's going in alrd. Ok la say we're friends is one thing but still..

Sorry for the ugly pictures.. I am not a very good looking creature haha


2006(!!!!!!!)


Birthday 2007


2007 - 2008???


NDP 2008


Christmas 2008



CNY shopping 2009






Valentine's 2009


Birthday 2009


CNY 2009 (We look so ugly but it brings back memories..)

It's been nearly 6 months and.i.still.can't.get.over.this.feeling. and then you're going in alrd. Man. From a sissy to a man.. I'll miss you so much during these 2 weeks :/ 

P.s Sorry for the ugly post. This is for the uglies.m

Harrows, Fishball is being a lazy ball again today. She doesn't wanna updateeee, AGAIN.

Fishball: " Must you emphasize on the 'Again' ? "
Me: " Yes. "
Fishball: " Why ? "
Me: " Because you always don't wanna update what. "
Fishball: Emoing in process.
Me: " Unless you post yourself then I won't emphasize on the 'Again' lorhhh. "
Fishball: " Okay. "
Me: " So does that mean that you're gonna update yourself ? :D "
Fishball: " No, it's okay. You can emphasize as much as you want. "

Mei ci hao xiang ni

Haaa, love you (:

Before I anything, I braided my hair. Haha so this is the process:







The dedications:

Baby best, thanks for being there for me. Throughout thick and thin, we've retained such a tight friendship throughout these 5 years. Sorry for being a bitch sometimes, so thanks for bearing with that and for the moments we laughed and cried together.. I appreciate it too much. Everything seems much better now and things will eventually be in their place.. I'll be there for you when you need me, you know it. You're like my sister, and you mean alot to me. I love you deep deep. Be happy.

Wendy, thanks for constantly accompanying me to tampines, just to walk around or visit ctn! Hahah. You're like a super good friend and I really appreciate you in my life. Thanks for the concern and for this friendship. Love you many k. All the best for your O's. I'll meet you in the toilet after we get the results. We'll go to POLY. WE WILL WE WILL! Xoxo.

Shishi, rachel, the girls and guys, thanks for being so awesome, for bearing with my crap. Really appreciate this friendship that we've forged throughout the few years we've known each other. I appreciate each and everyone of you. Hugs! For the people taking the results soon, all the best! And for the 92 babies, like what wendy said, we're officially 18th this year. You guys rock. And.. Love you guys to the core.











Brudders, ohman hi, thanks for putting up with my rubbish. Thanks for sticking with me for the past like 7 years. Really wanna thank you all for being so concerned and trying to bring me back.. I know efforts seem wasted but it might pay off one day you know. Thank you and I love you guys ok.

Alethea, Merri, thank you for your friendship for almost 10 years now. I really do love you guys for every moment we've spent tgt, during O-B-E-Y and camp and everything.. You guys mean alot to me and although we're not that close anymore we still have to meet up ok, by hook or crook. I don't care.

To the others, like elvira and zheyee, if you ever come across this, I miss you guys. Hope to see you soon yea.

Family, I love each and everyone of you. I love the family gatherings and talks, being bimbo together. Blood is definitely thicker than water.. You all still mean the world to me.



Wanhui, i don't think you'll read this but thanks for the 3 years of love and support you've shown me. No one would have thought that we would be together, no one has ever thought for a moment that we would have lasted this long. Thanks for being so patient with me, with me constantly complaining and disregarding your feelings, giving you shit but you always put up with me and for that, it means so much that you were part of my life, a major part of my life. We didn't end well, I agree. I know I've caused unneeded hurt and pain and I'm really sorry. I regret some things I've said to you and I really did take you for granted.. It was my lost. You were a good guy. Find someone great. I miss and love you so much, everyday. Don't stop believing and be happy.

It's the second day of 2010.. That means after tomorrow, you'll be in the army.

Almost everyone's doing a year-end-christmas-and-new-year posts with all their memories and photographs. I can't say I've had a perfect year, it was much less than average actually.


(Nam Sam Tower, Korea. The place where they filmed Boys over Flowers.)


(Some mega church in Korea, really mega, like huge.)

This year was the break-up season for many and for me, it was my o-levels, this year was a reality check to who I was.. It's just not that easy to bring back who I was from what I've become, so hard to remember how ruth was before. My year was spent on cigarettes, being wasted, moping around the house thinking that something miraculous would happen to me so that I wouldn't have to be like this, feel the hurt. I tried to strive at getting what I wanted.. And what for? Only to defeat myself, only to know that what I'm doing will hurt me more. I'm just sick and tired. Nothing has been going right. As much as I'm hoping for a good outcome, I don't expect much.. From love, from my results, from friendships, from family, from me. I've given up as much as I really wanna try again or aim for something, I am too tired of failing. I can't blame, won't blame anyone for how I feel, who I've become. I'm just living. It's 3 more days to New year and 7 more till wh goes into the army. I think 2 and half more weeks to the results..? Anything can happen till then.. I'm just not hoping, trying not to at least.


Miss you..

Sorry for this super no christmasy mood post but still..
Merry Christmas and have a Happy New year. Be happy!